This morning, in the middle of summer, the snow fell, heavy and wet Weeping astonished gardens, I record it and keep quiet because I’m used to miracles. I see, through the shop windows, worried passages of faces, and mute Where will he end up, God, who knows everything? I am not blaspheming, I received this loneliness as a gift, not as punishment, as superiority, not at all horror. It will arrive, I know, tomorrow, some people. Someone had to die tonight, too. My soul is ready, like a spool and paper in front of me. Silence and chama. Who did you tear away from the city tonight? Whose name will we mention in the morning, with tobacco and coffee, in the coming days? One should be wise, let the horror of waiting on one’s face not manifest itself. Because it took me a long time to realize: this is a city where all diseases are contagious. Love spreads like jaundice and plague. And hatred rises equally. Am I not, perhaps, too alone? It’s not good, I’m so used to loneliness. Am I right, God? So, once upon a time (and it is written), a red lilac rain over the city, confusion and rear grew like weeds. And there are few healthy souls in the city. And it is right that this is so. Because, where does the disease come from – I understand, but where does the health come from? Is it, God, really, where does health come from? Do these people around me ask that (which I also receive, knowing that no two are the same, neither in front of you, nor in front of my face), do they ask? And do they know I’m watching them? How their hearts would tremble to see these lines! If I sin against myself, only then am I right with others. If I sin against them I do justice to myself. What is the truth then, tell me my God? The humble mula Mustafa begs you, that there is no other desire but to be quiet, and to leave even more quietly, when the hour comes.